Death and James

Death...it's something we are never looking forward to and something that comes way too suddenly. I wonder why James was taken away from me before I even got a chance to meet him face to face and I wonder why God let me meet him online even though he knew James was going to die very soon. What was the purpose? My heart and soul aches for James and his little AIM messages that say "hey" or tell me how his day was. I really do think we could have been a couple someday. We had so much in common yet we were so different too. I feel like my world is crumbling right beneath me and I am powerless to stop it. I am strong in the fact that I know God will provide but trying to live a life of dangerous wonder is taking its toll right now and I just want to give up and quit. But, James didn't quit so I won't either. I think about why he ran in front of the tractor trailer and I wish I knew why he did because I know he must have had a reason. That's all for now I LOVE YOU JAMES see you in Heaven!

High school

It's so weird to think I'm not in high school anymore and that I haven't been for two years now. It all feels like years and years and years but it also felt like it was yesterday when I was walking through the halls of FHS and going through all the high school drama. I'm not ready for real life.....I miss high school kinda sad huh. I don't miss the people but I miss some of the teachers and I miss the classes and just the atmosphere. Not that I liked the drama but I don't know it's hard to explain. I love college I really do and I'm so glad I am at ONU but I do miss parts of Fenton although I wish it was located somewhere other than Michigan. Oh well...can't turn back time.

If I could go anywhere....

If I could go anywhere.....

I would go to Australia

If I could do anything.....

I would get married to Channing Tatum (he's gorgeous!)

If I could be anyone

I would be Oprah

If I could be on any TV show...

I would be on Everwood or Full House

A lot to think about

I have so much to think about lately it's driving me nuts. Whether or not I'm gonna change my major along with worrying about whether or not I'll have the same roommates. I personally would love to room with Sara and Sarah and Stacey again but Sarah and Stacey seemed hesitant about it tonight and that scares me. Am I that bad of a roommate? I know I have my flaws and sometimes I can be a little too clingy but I'm working on it and I feel like I've done better. I just hope that I'd be able to find girls that I could room with next year if the three girls decided not to live with me again. I think satan is trying to attack me when I'm a little down cause I don't think I should be worrying about this the second week into this semester.

Hope everyone is doing good if they read this :)

Where am I headed

Things have changed...nursing doesn't seem fun anymore. I think I want to work in social work....Molly and Angie support me so why can't my parents. This is too complicated but at least God is here to always be by my side

I'm coloring my hair!!! But it is not permanent I promise...blonde hair I will be back soon don't leave me forever!

Trying this Blog thing one more time!

So my xanga is just too much work this blog is easier to use and easier to access for those who don't use xanga or have little knowledge of what a blog is in the first place.

Life's good. School has started back up here at ONU and I still can't believe I am in college. Let alone a college sophomore soon to be junior! It's all flying by so fast yet I can't wait for this chapter to end and begin my next chapter in my life (I know I'll regret saying it later) . I'm loving my roommates it is so much better than my situation last year. Although I may have never met my roomies if I hadn't been through that experience last year. Still hopin I'll get my drivers license this summer and find a car (a cheap but reliable one) so that I can stay here and attend the nursing program otherwise I think I'm doomed for the great lake state again (Michigan). Did I mention that I am going back to Camp Barnabas this summer? Heck yeah! July 30-August 6th baby can't wait :-) Anyway, Britt's down here with me this semester livin in an apartment and goin to KCC so that's amazing cause she is my best friend and she loves me no matter what and she and I have a blast doin absolutely nothing. Tonight was Makom and I have to say it was an interesting an experience.....a little long but life changing and I'm excited for tomorrow....if I get to go. Who knows what we have planned for tomorrow....hair coloring, movie, cleaning anything can happen on this campus on the weekend WATCH OUT! Daddy should be comin this weekend if the weather cooperates because then we can go to Chicago and Giordanos yummy! Alright well that's enough for now hopefully I post regularly and someone actually reads this

Listening to: Misguided Roses: Edwin McCain