Quick Update

Besides having to find new roommates life is great. I LOVE Olivet more and more each day and I'm so glad this is where God has placed me. One nagging question though.....am I supposed to be here next year? So many new opportunities have now opened up going grad school in Boston, finishing my degree at Grand Valley and a whole lot more which is exciting but scary. I miss my friends studying abroad Kara, Joy J, Lindsey, Liz I wish they were here to make me laugh and smile. I have to go to work now I'll write more later

I want a guy to love me for me....that's it. Can you find me somebody soon God please!

Death and James

Death...it's something we are never looking forward to and something that comes way too suddenly. I wonder why James was taken away from me before I even got a chance to meet him face to face and I wonder why God let me meet him online even though he knew James was going to die very soon. What was the purpose? My heart and soul aches for James and his little AIM messages that say "hey" or tell me how his day was. I really do think we could have been a couple someday. We had so much in common yet we were so different too. I feel like my world is crumbling right beneath me and I am powerless to stop it. I am strong in the fact that I know God will provide but trying to live a life of dangerous wonder is taking its toll right now and I just want to give up and quit. But, James didn't quit so I won't either. I think about why he ran in front of the tractor trailer and I wish I knew why he did because I know he must have had a reason. That's all for now I LOVE YOU JAMES see you in Heaven!

High school

It's so weird to think I'm not in high school anymore and that I haven't been for two years now. It all feels like years and years and years but it also felt like it was yesterday when I was walking through the halls of FHS and going through all the high school drama. I'm not ready for real life.....I miss high school kinda sad huh. I don't miss the people but I miss some of the teachers and I miss the classes and just the atmosphere. Not that I liked the drama but I don't know it's hard to explain. I love college I really do and I'm so glad I am at ONU but I do miss parts of Fenton although I wish it was located somewhere other than Michigan. Oh well...can't turn back time.

If I could go anywhere....

If I could go anywhere.....

I would go to Australia

If I could do anything.....

I would get married to Channing Tatum (he's gorgeous!)

If I could be anyone

I would be Oprah

If I could be on any TV show...

I would be on Everwood or Full House

A lot to think about

I have so much to think about lately it's driving me nuts. Whether or not I'm gonna change my major along with worrying about whether or not I'll have the same roommates. I personally would love to room with Sara and Sarah and Stacey again but Sarah and Stacey seemed hesitant about it tonight and that scares me. Am I that bad of a roommate? I know I have my flaws and sometimes I can be a little too clingy but I'm working on it and I feel like I've done better. I just hope that I'd be able to find girls that I could room with next year if the three girls decided not to live with me again. I think satan is trying to attack me when I'm a little down cause I don't think I should be worrying about this the second week into this semester.

Hope everyone is doing good if they read this :)

Where am I headed

Things have changed...nursing doesn't seem fun anymore. I think I want to work in social work....Molly and Angie support me so why can't my parents. This is too complicated but at least God is here to always be by my side